;;; love & other disaster

MIXED EMOTIONS

2012-01-03T20:17:00.000+08:00

dont know how to feel.

sad.

or happy.

hurm.

A short quickie

2011-12-16T14:26:00.002+08:00

Well hello there...how is everyone doing? Its been ages since my last update i feel like ive lost track of all my social activities and i almost forgot the existence of my blog.as most of dun already know,do follow me on twitter to keep in touch... :)) and oh ive finally landed a job in the banking world.aheherM. Still adjusting to the odd working hours and in fact ive yet to sleep after 11 hours of working...ecehhhh.oklah saja nak say hello.anyone still reading?? Anyone? ;(

fun ride

2011-09-30T12:51:00.003+08:00

hello how have you guys been?
im good, everything's AWESOME! (TAKE THAT haters! LOL)
i shall be moving, AGAIN. yeah2 i feel like a nomad already
will fully update when i finally paid my internet bill
because im too broke to do anything now, teehee!

take care lovers, be good!

2011-09-17T20:39:00.002+08:00

making her suffer
growing up and witnessing how he abused her
knowing that hes got so many other women secretly
and knowing that while shes suffering and struggling to keep the family together and dealing with money issues
he is happily havin othr relationship behind her back and been forking out money happily to others
calling his own bloodline jalang and stupid and saying that theyre not good enough to live in this world
hitting them.

no,he doesnt get to mend the shit this time.he doesnt get to have another chance.
no matter how much money he try to bribe.

they accepted him at his worth but he didnt accept them at their worst.

polygamy is for coward guys who doesnt think of the future consequences.

so dont go all "semua tu jodoh, semua tu ketentuan allah, sedangkan nabi berkahwin 4 blablabla"

try sharing ur most prized possesion with someone else, and let that someone else ruin ur prized possession. then tell me how wud that make u feel.

life isnt always sunshine and rainbows, but then again so are u.

If only killing is not a crime...

2011-09-15T08:55:00.001+08:00

I wudve killed hundreds of people by now.

Bhahahaha.

I dont like to deal with black magic thingy.

I dont care if ure a commando/soldier/bagus sgt like apa2 lah

Unless uve a perfect face, ure superduper rich, ure kindhearted,uve a perfect family,uve a respectful career,ure just perfect in everything,

Then only u can come and interrupt my life n my love life.

Ive fought for my right,ive fought for my man and ive fought for love

Im done fighting n its my time to change for the better.

But at times im just like other normal girls who need special attention on that time of the month

Believe me if u wudve known me way back then,years before now,

Youd wonder why i didnt go off leaving him for another man

They say it takes two to tango,

My side,im the Girl with the nasty words who rarely shows positive emotions,becuse ive been brough up in families where feelings are not discussed openly and where money is the reason for living.but yeah i blame myself for this nasty rude words that came out from my mouth.
But if u cant handle me at my worst how can u convince me that u deserve me at my best?

On his side, hes the guy with a flirtatious attitude,not believing in monogamous relationship,believing that he doesnt need a lady in his life as long as there are happy endings parlours that he could go to. And as long as there are disrespectful girls willing to throw themselves on the internet not realuzing that they cud be the reason for breaking up a marriage/engagement/relationship.

So yes,both of us got attitude.problems. Just like all of u.the only difference is that i chose to publicize my issue n u dont.

If u think i shudnt be writing this n tell the whole world, i wonder y ure still reading this entry.we feed on gossips n pry into other people's private life because we wanna know mor bout the person,we wanna know all sorts of attitude that people have,we wanna have things to talk bout when we hangout with friends.right?so we took advantage of other people's problems and made it a topic to talk about with frens durng coffeesessions.

We are not perfect,u me and the rest of the world

We have our own prblems and dramas,only the way we deal with the shits differ from each other.

Unless u can clap fire out of ur hands n fart rainbows and burp hearts out of ur mouth,

Ure free to judge,to condemn me,to have things against me

If not, lets just stick to me writing m on shits and dramas, and u minding ur own problem.

Dont say guys are not the same n not all of them gila sex.

Trust me, even a mute guy think of sex every so often.its just how they express it differs.
I used to believe that not all guys are the same, but seeing my friends,my exes,my relatives, went throughh the same thing,
Yeah i say guys think with their penis first then only they use their brains.
Even the nicest guy i knew backthen who solat without fail,whom family is respectful among the community,ends up two timing his girlfriend,not once not twice,but more than that.

So yeah,not everything is colors and rainbows.

Dont be too confident that ur man isnt straying, he might be, even if its in his head.

To this certain ex of mine, if i no longer contact u,dat means im no longer interested to be friends with u.so don even bother texting me unless ure ready to payback all the money u owe me.n alang2 nak main mandrem buatla bg mati terus,senang.

same situation,different ways.

2011-09-04T21:55:00.003+08:00

after 540 days,

i am finally letting go.

for good.

and to celebrate this confused and mixed emotions,

im gonna start forcing myself to go on a mastercleanse diet tomorrow.

i wish him the best

...NOT.

all time favorite

2011-08-24T10:41:00.001+08:00

"Now and forever....
i will be your man "
-Now&forever;Richard Marx-

full of love :)

2011-08-22T22:30:00.000+08:00

my oh my its been so long since my last update yea? dah nak raya pun, tsk tsk. how time flies.and each day i pray to god that he would give me strength to get through my days without any difficulties.i am blessed to have been surrounded by such great people, and while im busy mending my emotions, theres someone who is willing to stay up with me, strumming on his guitar tryna cheer me up. i couldnt have ask for a better friend like him :) ive got tons of pics to upload but i forgot where i put my cable so there wont be any pictures soon :( i hope everything would go accordingly, take care lovers! *hugs*

some things are better left buried away

2011-08-12T02:55:00.005+08:00

i remember going through good and hard times together,

counting every last penny that we had together when we are fucking broke,

arguing over smaller to bigger things,

lying to each other so one of us wont get mad,

eating like theres no tomorrow,

wearing fugly and oversized clothes while cuddling with each other,

waking each other up just to go to McDonald's in time for breakfast,

hitting each other up for attention,

teaching each other ways to be ghetto,

chest slap each other,

holding each others hands and being in each others arms just to feel safe,

going to new places together,

making each other cards for every stupid occasions,

hating each other so much, only to love each other so deep in the end,

going to the beach for the first time together,

buying flowers for each other,

walking up to night markets while cursing each other cuz we're too fat to even walk,

laughing at our stupid jokes which noone understands,

having our own secret language,

having farting competitions,

annoy each other with the nyupnyap sound and nose-digging thingy,

visiting each other every weekends,

buying presents and going shopping together,

dressing each other up everytime we go out,

checking each other's phone secretly while the other is in the toilet,

dedicating soappy love songs and putting it on repeat,

forcing each other to pose for the camera,

having roadtrips and holidays together,

decorating each other's room,

skyping and webcaming with each other,

saying mean things to each other just because we're full of ego to even admit that we love each other,

breaking up and making up.

what happened to us,

when and how did it go wrong

i miss us.

i miss u.

Plastic Surgeries in Malaysia - A Sin or A Trend?

2011-08-11T23:13:00.009+08:00

Ask a girl which body parts she would want to change, she would probably end up listing down MOST OF HER BODYPARTS. Trust me. We girls are never satisfied with what we have. some more, nowadays the pressure to look "nearly-perfect" is super high. i mean, come on! dont tell me u girls are all satisfied with your looks? okaylah maybe we all should bersyukur with all that had been given by God. but in reality, most girls(well at least the ones with money,that is) would turn to plastic surgeries for even faster result in looking good. look at Kilafairy, for instant,

(picture credits to Kilafairy's Facebook Fanpage)

dont tell me its God's gift, those angelina-jolie's lips and PERFECT face, and body? you've got to be kidding me if you said its all natural? have u seen her before shes famous, seriously? most of our local celebrities are doing a bit alterations here and there.

(picture credits to lengyein.blogspot.com)

and there's this really gorgeous lady, Leng Yein who is not afraid afraid to open up and admit that she has undergone several plastic surgeries to alter her looks,into looking and feeling good about herself. some more recently she got sponsored by Korean professionals to do more surgeries on her. you can check out their page here

Oh, and since ive been doing my own research myself on this whole plastic surgeries thingy, ive come to know that two famous Singapore bloggers, Dawn Yang and Xiaxue also had several plastic surgeries. no wonder they look perfect! well at least Dawn Yang does. Hihi. Even the korea's famous Wondergirls also had plastic surgeries. okay okay i AM THAT LIFELESS, i know. LOL.

so, there's this famous clinic in Malaysia that offers such services, where most of our local celebrities go for their facials and laser treatments,i think and its Ayu Jelita . I was thinking of going there too. no no im not increasing my boob's size or whutevs, i was thinking of getting rid of my keloid scar on my chest (which people always mistakenly thought as LOVEBITE T___T) For those interested, you guys could go check this place out, it is situated in Ampang, TTDI and also Wangsa Maju. and i was told that we shud go there during promotion period cuz the price will be like wayyyyyyyyyyyy cheaper. hehe.

oh and for those who are willing to take up a notch could visit this site, http://www.bangkokmakeovers.com/ where this Rachel lady, who's an australian residing in Bangkok, assisting any of u who are interested in doing plastic surgeries in Bangkok. hehe. hurm,ill leave you guys with some before and after plastic surgeries pictures of two famous The Hills' casts just because i LOVE watching the reality series. haha;

heidi montag

Audrina Patridge

pssst; this post is just a mere interest of me, ive never done anything on my body, just incase any of you are wondering. LOL. and oh, sorry if you're reading this time puasa, sexy pictures pulak LOL.

Turkish Restaurant, Pantai Tengah Langkawi

2011-08-10T04:09:00.000+08:00

during my last few days in Langkawi, i went to this small Turkish Restaurant at Pantai Tengah. My first time there was with my uncle few months back and i was hooked! they serves really fresh fruit juices and the best KUNAFAK in er..Langkawi? heheh i first heard of this dessert upon reading Shazwani Hamid's blog and she is right. this dessert is AWESOME! okay2 ill let the pictures do the talking.

see my mint lemonade? SUPER REFRESHING!

kunafak, this is the dessert im blabbing about. SO DAMN GOOD I TELL YA ()!#*(!#&($* the inside tastes like, urm some sort of bread pudding+sticky pudding, the outside macam kuih karas hehehe and sprinkled with lots of pistachios. and the milky thingy tu i think some sorta evaporated milk+sprinkles of cinnamon. yumss. oh and very fattening LOL

the first time there i had vegetarian dish(couldnt remember what the name was) and my uncle had mutton with rice. the food was great but the i think the price is a tad bit too high. but then again everything is pricey in langkawi. LOL.

midnight snacks @Rock Cafe, Alor Setar

2011-08-07T03:45:00.001+08:00

after my brother brought me to this awesome hangout cafe in Alor Setar, i AM HOOKED! the first time i went we only had drinks(cuz this place has wide range of drinks selection). It is some sort of Alor Setar's version of Hard Rock Cafe hehehe. You can either sit inside(where it is more pub-kindda ambiance) or you can sit openly outside where there are small wooden gazebos and long benches+tables all over the place. The smart thing about the place is that instead of putting mosquito repellents at every tables, they will switch on like floor fans, so we cudnt complain on feeling hot/gatal from all the nyamuks. genius,aytee?! i brought some of my friends here and THEY LOVED IT! :D :D :D oh and couple of weeks ago, i went there with my sister cuz we wanted to munch something light but i ended up having lambchop pfffft.

(hahaha excuse me for posing so stiff macam nak take formal picture pulak duhhh)

this is my sis! eyharara , excuse our bare faced look.we were literally in our sweatpants, malas nak dress up and all. LOL

(see the surrounding behind, nice kan? ohh this place is HUGE!)

our not-so-nice cheezy mayo wedges sebab takrasa sangat the cheese, kedekut!

my blackcurrant mint drink! the drinks there never disappoint me. hehe my sis membosankan she only drinks plain water. boo.

oh my lambchop yang superkecik but myGOD very the orgasmic. or maybe cuz i was hungry. tapi balik rumah terus panas satu badan hurhurhur.

oh this place, if you are familiar with the routes in Alor Setar, is situated just across Sala Classic Restaurant, in Tanjung Bendahara i think. beside Caltex's petrol station. if you come from Nasmir Simpang Kuala, just go straight where there will be this building of Tabung Haji and courts mammoth on your left.just go straight on the way to Convent High School, you will pass by a flyover then you'll reach a traffic light and head straight on, you wont miss the place, it would be on your right immediately after the traffic light. but uhh, i wouldnt recommend this place if you're a fussy Muslim, because this place serves beers. but to think of it if you are okay hanging out in Hard Rock Cafe then it shouldnt be any problem with this place either. dont worry the food is Halal. Ive asked the people there. :)

Of Praline Cakes,Animal Candles,Miss Big Nosey Nerd

2011-08-04T03:30:00.000+08:00

this entry was supposed to be up last 5th of July, sorry adik for the delay, i know you dont mind at all but whutevs. it was a very last minute plan macam kelamkabut sbab semua orang outstation, summore the secret recipe people in Alor Star are not cooperating with me, i wanted only half of the cake and asked them to write it on that other half of the cake board/whutever thingy u call the thing where u put a cake on.then there was a slight miscommunication between the staffs there and she wrote the birthday message ON THE CAKE instead of on the board. i was so pissed and asked them to write it correctly, boleh pulak the girl cakap "Mana saya tau, bukan cik bagitau saya pun" LIKE WTF? the service in Secret Recipe City Plaza is worst than before. dah la kena tunggu lama then how should i know who is responsible for the writings, next time wear a badge or name tags declaring your duty for that day okay? bods. then bila i suruh tulis correctly dia boleh pulak ambik pisau kecik tu and nak korek keluar the writings on the cake. CONFIRM CACAT lah kann. i terus cepat2 jerit from the counter tu pun dia buat pekak lagi. i cakap takyah la tulis je lah dua kali. tupun dia bods sangat dah tulis dua kali alignment lari pulak. but whutevs la i dah sakit hati tahap maximum. then i rushed to tesco to search for the numbered candles since SECRET RECIPE bijak pandai tak bagi candles dekat i. tengok tak permainan diorang di situ? hurmphhh! kena pulak dekat tesco candles dah habis then i dah macam alaaa takkan nak pergi kedai cake satu tu kott dahla jauh ttba ternampakkk Kedai cake tu buka cawangan dekat2 tesco, thank GOD! i pun pegi la situ, mintak numbered candles yang besar tu tapi diorang takda stock then tenampak candles yang comel2 ni. ttba pulak nampak yang spec dengan misai n janggut tu hihihi. balik2 tetido sampai a quarter before midnight terus kelamkabut letak candles semua, ajak mama tapi dia mengantuk sangat if tak dah memang kena paksa pakai party hat cinderella dah malam tu. hahaha. last2 celebrate dua orang je dalam red dungeon eyharara tu hihihi anywaysssssss;

Happy 21st Birthday beloved adik!!!

you're now officially a pre-adult!! may god bless you and i love u so muchos lobosss!!

*biggghugggggg*

The Best Mee Ayam in Alor Star, hands down.

2011-08-03T01:38:00.002+08:00

i could still remember years back when i was still in high school, zaman budak2 baru nak belajar besosial(yeah,pekembangan sosial i lambat sikit,highschool baru nak bekembang LOL) masa tu rajinnnnnnlah pergi tuition center. nak2 pilih yang dekat2 mall je, senang nak dating HAHAHA. and dulu parents busy so hari2 pakcik driver yang jaga, lepas skolah suruh pakcik driver hantar pergi mall konon nak beli stationeries (hari2 pun nak beli stationeries hahaha bods) kalau dulu tak hangout dekat McDonald's, mesti hangout dekat Foodcourt City Plaza, dulu hantu makan nasi goreng cina dekat sebelah gerai ni tapi macam dah lama pulak takmakan situ hehe. lepastu makan the famous chicken chop kat foodcourt tu jugak then yang palingggggggggggpalinggggggpalinggggggggggg famous adalah gerai Mee Ayam ni;

taktaulah if dia guna mandrem or tak(hahaha asal laku jeeee i mesti nak cakap mandrem, soliii soliii) tapi my goddddd memang sedap sehingga menjilat jari pipi semua lahhh. dulu i tak penah makan mee ayam dia walaupun mee ayam tu sangat famous. i suka gilaaa dengan mee tomyam dia(tapi kalau nak order mee tomyam, mintak mee keras tu...and dia mesti cakap MEE TU LAMBAT WO,pastu u cakap je TAKPA I TUNGGU hehehe) but its worth the wait.

walaupun tak lama mana pun overrr aunty tu. semuanya dijamin halal sebab i dah tanya kakak melayu yang kerja situ. okay bebalik kepada mee tomyam tadi, kuah dia sangattttttttt lain dari yang lain, macam i dunnno how to describe, sikit2 rasa cam ala2 kuah maggie tapi yg improved version la and sikit2 mcm tomyam soup thailand, rasa memang menyengattt la balik2 mesti bibir angie uolsss. tu pun i dengan kawan2 i selalu order mee tomyam letak mee keras and extra pedas. EXTRA PEDAS U!! so bayangkanla berapa gelas air kitorang kena minum and betapa super botoxed nya mulut kitorang hehehe.

dekat situ yang famous ada 3 jenis mee, mee ayam; kuah dia kaler hitam, ada shredded chicken, sedap!! ada claypot mee, slalu dia serve dalam steel bowl, sedap jugak tapi now i jadi macam gila mee ayam dia lah, oh and dekat situ ada macam barang2 yong tau foo, if you nak add to your soup/mee pun boleh, slalu i akan ambik sampai penuh mangkuk T___T and the price pun reasonable kadang2 tu ambik kemain lagi banyak, tengok2 rm6.50 ja! haaa mana nak dapat tu?? hehehe haritu feeling2 memory teenagers, ajak lah Mr A try mee ayam tu since dia pun tak penah try lagi, mula tu dia macam eh sedap ka, eh ni lah eh tu lah, demand nak makan tempat yang proper sikit lah potpetpotpet last2 lepas dia dah makan tu terus hooked!! heee. so kalau sesapa yang teringin nak try tu if datang Alor Star try la makan dekat sini, Foodcourt City Plaza, tingkat 4. :D :D :D

time ni dia baru buka, belum habis buka lagi barang2 yong tau foo, sebab tu banyak kosong lagi hihihi

taraaaaa! sedapppp *drools* kalau order mee ayam dia akan bagi sambal macam cili boh tu, dulu i tak reti makan tu tapi now dah expert okay! siap amek semua bola2 tu cicah2 cili boh lagi uu. hehehe.

psssst; rasa macam terliur gila ok tengok pictures ni, nak berbuka makan ni lah! :D :D

tingting id like to make a toast...

2011-08-02T23:47:00.004+08:00

wahhh gitewwwww, bulan ramadhan pun mau toast2, boleh ka? haruslaaaa toast air sirap sajaaaa... :D :D :D sorry morry i was so caught up with life til the fact that i got soo lazy updating my blog, but no worries, no worries. i dah buat template baru, hapus sudah template blog lama yang murung tuh, hah kau, ambikkkk layout baruuuu meriahh uolss!! buntang mata nak baca tulisan dengan mana color bunga2 background yg striking2 ni. hihihi.

almaklumlahhhh nama pun tengah bulan puasa kenalah menceria2kan diri kannn. nanti if mandom mandom, haaa tak le semangat nak puasa. ececehh padahal harini asyik tebongkang okayy! ohhh, lupa pulak i tengah dalam proses nak menglabel semua posts sebab tu la semua dah disembunyikan , azam tahun baru mengikut kalendar islam, ewah *feeling2 muslimah* takmau lagi letak post2 yang berunsur sakit hati begaduh emosi dan sebagainya, jadi semuanya harus happy sahajaaaaaaa. mebi...kot.

LOLOLOL(i nampak ada orang tu tulis LOLOLOLOL ni tiap2 kali dia buat lawak maksudnya apa eh? laugh out loud out lod ouut loud eh? mcm ascending type for ringing tone?smakin lama smakin kuat nada gelak tu? LOLOLOLOL)

i tengah besuka ria di rumah niii, menanti hari nak bekerja dekat dngan rumah, takboleh bepisah dengan bau ketiak mak hihihi. oklah, tu je nak update, nnti2 kitew updatew lagiew kayw??? HIHIHIHI . okay sumpah annoying. uh oh!! lupa pulak;

SELAMAT MENYAMBUT RAMADHAN!!!

kepada yang tinggal di Alor Setar tu kalau malas sangat nak terawih jom pergi masjid dekat Taman Uda, confirm cepat habis, lajuuu okayyyy macam pergi cardio exercise kalau buat 20 rakaat. HAHAHA. okay2 jangan simpan bekalan makanan titbits dekat dalam bilik yeeee, and jangan buat2 pegi dapur bukak petiais and amik makan masukkan dalam mulut cepat2 and trus masuk bilik yeeeeeee!! haippp haiipppp! :D :D

pssttt;; rambut i dah pendek uolss!! dah teserlah keribo tu!! huhu. oh ada orang panggil i rhino sbb i gemuk. takpe, ALHAMDULILAH. kita tengok nanti karma nak datang menyerang tak? hihihi.

HELLOOO!

2011-07-24T05:40:00.001+08:00

testing testing

im starting to be a racist because of Datuk Sosilawati's Case

2010-09-15T23:13:00.006+08:00

it saddens me so much when i read about Datuk Sosilawati's case, how could they do that to her? and the other 3 guys? They have family, they have kids. and it happened during the month of Ramadhan, how insulted I feel, as a Malay, as a Muslim. and after watching the news just now, i really wish that the suspect would rot in hell. another victim not long ago, was hit so bad and thrown into a hungry bear's cage owned by the suspect. he must be a psychopath for doing all these sorts of crimes. i couldnt help but feel disgusted, and being racist. im sorry. but i always have respect for all the indians community here in malaysia and how theyve been treated so bad among all the races here but after what happened, i couldnt help but feel so damn angry, so much for "kerana nila setitik, habis sebelanga". Please, karma is a bitch. even how gangster u think u are, it will eventually come back to you one day, if not it will definitely attack your anak cucu or cicit in the future.

crazy penang chinese lady gone lunatic: CONFIRMED!

2010-06-26T02:27:00.010+08:00

oh my, if you have been following my blog for quite some time, you must remember the post ive bitched about my landlord cum housemate while i was living in this miami green condominium in Batu Ferringhi during my training days with Hard Rock Hotel. the loony who kicks people out just because they forgot to wash the rice cooker AND she kicked me out because i brought friends over. crazy. and i was going through the ads in caribilik.com when i came across THIS!

someone must've posted it. i bet it must be carol. it SHOULD be carol considering shes the worst victim among both of us. ive learnt my lesson. NEVER EVER rent a house together with the landlord unless you have some kind of like a tight-close relationship. or NEVER EVER rent a house together with a single 50 plus years of age lady. there MUST be something wrong with her, she could be kookoo in the head,even! i curse u till the day i die! no wonder all my valuable stuffs have gone missing. damn u!

you can click here for more:

http://www.caribilik.my/rooms/62363/beware-of-renting-this-room-to-let-in-resort-condo-blk-c-l9-7may

PFFFT!*WIPES OFF SALIVA ALL OVER DUE TO CURSING TOO MUCH*

i dont mean to be racist. but WHY ARE MOST OF THE CHINESE IN PENANG HAVE SO MUCH HATRED TOWARDS US MALAY? i mean, COME ON la! use your so-called-"genius"-brain, cant you differentiate between the rempit clans and the decent ones? i used to have so much respect in them because they are smart in business and bla bla bla but now, after what ive gone through during my training days, the percentage of me respecting them is down to 0.09% i believe not all of them are like this, but up until now, ive never met any kind ones, yet. bash all you want, but its reality. everyone knows that chinese in penang treat other races like shit, unless you're some kind of an angmoh, then they will eventually kiss and suck up your ass like crazy.

hurmph.