MIXED EMOTIONS

dont know how to feel.

sad.

or happy.

hurm.

A short quickie

Well hello there...how is everyone doing? Its been ages since my last update i feel like ive lost track of all my social activities and i almost forgot the existence of my blog.as most of dun already know,do follow me on twitter to keep in touch... :)) and oh ive finally landed a job in the banking world.aheherM. Still adjusting to the odd working hours and in fact ive yet to sleep after 11 hours of working...ecehhhh.oklah saja nak say hello.anyone still reading?? Anyone? ;(

fun ride

hello how have you guys been?
im good, everything's AWESOME! (TAKE THAT haters! LOL)
i shall be moving, AGAIN. yeah2 i feel like a nomad already
will fully update when i finally paid my internet bill
because im too broke to do anything now, teehee!

take care lovers, be good!

making her suffer
growing up and witnessing how he abused her
knowing that hes got so many other women secretly
and knowing that while shes suffering and struggling to keep the family together and dealing with money issues
he is happily havin othr relationship behind her back and been forking out money happily to others
calling his own bloodline jalang and stupid and saying that theyre not good enough to live in this world
hitting them.

no,he doesnt get to mend the shit this time.he doesnt get to have another chance.
no matter how much money he try to bribe.

they accepted him at his worth but he didnt accept them at their worst.

polygamy is for coward guys who doesnt think of the future consequences.

so dont go all "semua tu jodoh, semua tu ketentuan allah, sedangkan nabi berkahwin 4 blablabla"

try sharing ur most prized possesion with someone else, and let that someone else ruin ur prized possession. then tell me how wud that make u feel.

life isnt always sunshine and rainbows, but then again so are u.

If only killing is not a crime...

I wudve killed hundreds of people by now.

Bhahahaha.

I dont like to deal with black magic thingy.

I dont care if ure a commando/soldier/bagus sgt like apa2 lah

Unless uve a perfect face, ure superduper rich, ure kindhearted,uve a perfect family,uve a respectful career,ure just perfect in everything,

Then only u can come and interrupt my life n my love life.

Ive fought for my right,ive fought for my man and ive fought for love

Im done fighting n its my time to change for the better.

But at times im just like other normal girls who need special attention on that time of the month

Believe me if u wudve known me way back then,years before now,

Youd wonder why i didnt go off leaving him for another man

They say it takes two to tango,

My side,im the Girl with the nasty words who rarely shows positive emotions,becuse ive been brough up in families where feelings are not discussed openly and where money is the reason for living.but yeah i blame myself for this nasty rude words that came out from my mouth.
But if u cant handle me at my worst how can u convince me that u deserve me at my best?

On his side, hes the guy with a flirtatious attitude,not believing in monogamous relationship,believing that he doesnt need a lady in his life as long as there are happy endings parlours that he could go to. And as long as there are disrespectful girls willing to throw themselves on the internet not realuzing that they cud be the reason for breaking up a marriage/engagement/relationship.

So yes,both of us got attitude.problems. Just like all of u.the only difference is that i chose to publicize my issue n u dont.

If u think i shudnt be writing this n tell the whole world, i wonder y ure still reading this entry.we feed on gossips n pry into other people's private life because we wanna know mor bout the person,we wanna know all sorts of attitude that people have,we wanna have things to talk bout when we hangout with friends.right?so we took advantage of other people's problems and made it a topic to talk about with frens durng coffeesessions.

We are not perfect,u me and the rest of the world

We have our own prblems and dramas,only the way we deal with the shits differ from each other.

Unless u can clap fire out of ur hands n fart rainbows and burp hearts out of ur mouth,

Ure free to judge,to condemn me,to have things against me

If not, lets just stick to me writing m on shits and dramas, and u minding ur own problem.

Dont say guys are not the same n not all of them gila sex.

Trust me, even a mute guy think of sex every so often.its just how they express it differs.
I used to believe that not all guys are the same, but seeing my friends,my exes,my relatives, went throughh the same thing,
Yeah i say guys think with their penis first then only they use their brains.
Even the nicest guy i knew backthen who solat without fail,whom family is respectful among the community,ends up two timing his girlfriend,not once not twice,but more than that.

So yeah,not everything is colors and rainbows.

Dont be too confident that ur man isnt straying, he might be, even if its in his head.

To this certain ex of mine, if i no longer contact u,dat means im no longer interested to be friends with u.so don even bother texting me unless ure ready to payback all the money u owe me.n alang2 nak main mandrem buatla bg mati terus,senang.

same situation,different ways.

after 540 days,

i am finally letting go.

for good.

and to celebrate this confused and mixed emotions,

im gonna start forcing myself to go on a mastercleanse diet tomorrow.

i wish him the best

...NOT.

all time favorite

"Now and forever....
i will be your man "
-Now&forever;Richard Marx-

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full of love :)

my oh my its been so long since my last update yea? dah nak raya pun, tsk tsk. how time flies.and each day i pray to god that he would give me strength to get through my days without any difficulties.i am blessed to have been surrounded by such great people, and while im busy mending my emotions, theres someone who is willing to stay up with me, strumming on his guitar tryna cheer me up. i couldnt have ask for a better friend like him :) ive got tons of pics to upload but i forgot where i put my cable so there wont be any pictures soon :( i hope everything would go accordingly, take care lovers! *hugs*

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some things are better left buried away

i remember going through good and hard times together,

counting every last penny that we had together when we are fucking broke,

arguing over smaller to bigger things,

lying to each other so one of us wont get mad,

eating like theres no tomorrow,

wearing fugly and oversized clothes while cuddling with each other,

waking each other up just to go to McDonald's in time for breakfast,

hitting each other up for attention,

teaching each other ways to be ghetto,

chest slap each other,

holding each others hands and being in each others arms just to feel safe,

going to new places together,

making each other cards for every stupid occasions,

hating each other so much, only to love each other so deep in the end,

going to the beach for the first time together,

buying flowers for each other,

walking up to night markets while cursing each other cuz we're too fat to even walk,

laughing at our stupid jokes which noone understands,

having our own secret language,

having farting competitions,

annoy each other with the nyupnyap sound and nose-digging thingy,

visiting each other every weekends,

buying presents and going shopping together,

dressing each other up everytime we go out,

checking each other's phone secretly while the other is in the toilet,

dedicating soappy love songs and putting it on repeat,

forcing each other to pose for the camera,

having roadtrips and holidays together,

decorating each other's room,

skyping and webcaming with each other,

saying mean things to each other just because we're full of ego to even admit that we love each other,

breaking up and making up.

what happened to us,

when and how did it go wrong

i miss us.

i miss u.

Plastic Surgeries in Malaysia - A Sin or A Trend?

Ask a girl which body parts she would want to change, she would probably end up listing down MOST OF HER BODYPARTS. Trust me. We girls are never satisfied with what we have. some more, nowadays the pressure to look "nearly-perfect" is super high. i mean, come on! dont tell me u girls are all satisfied with your looks? okaylah maybe we all should bersyukur with all that had been given by God. but in reality, most girls(well at least the ones with money,that is) would turn to plastic surgeries for even faster result in looking good. look at Kilafairy, for instant,

(picture credits to Kilafairy's Facebook Fanpage)

dont tell me its God's gift, those angelina-jolie's lips and PERFECT face, and body? you've got to be kidding me if you said its all natural? have u seen her before shes famous, seriously? most of our local celebrities are doing a bit alterations here and there.

(picture credits to lengyein.blogspot.com)

and there's this really gorgeous lady, Leng Yein who is not afraid afraid to open up and admit that she has undergone several plastic surgeries to alter her looks,into looking and feeling good about herself. some more recently she got sponsored by Korean professionals to do more surgeries on her. you can check out their page here

Oh, and since ive been doing my own research myself on this whole plastic surgeries thingy, ive come to know that two famous Singapore bloggers, Dawn Yang and Xiaxue also had several plastic surgeries. no wonder they look perfect! well at least Dawn Yang does. Hihi. Even the korea's famous Wondergirls also had plastic surgeries. okay okay i AM THAT LIFELESS, i know. LOL.

so, there's this famous clinic in Malaysia that offers such services, where most of our local celebrities go for their facials and laser treatments,i think and its Ayu Jelita . I was thinking of going there too. no no im not increasing my boob's size or whutevs, i was thinking of getting rid of my keloid scar on my chest (which people always mistakenly thought as LOVEBITE T___T) For those interested, you guys could go check this place out, it is situated in Ampang, TTDI and also Wangsa Maju. and i was told that we shud go there during promotion period cuz the price will be like wayyyyyyyyyyyy cheaper. hehe.

oh and for those who are willing to take up a notch could visit this site, http://www.bangkokmakeovers.com/ where this Rachel lady, who's an australian residing in Bangkok, assisting any of u who are interested in doing plastic surgeries in Bangkok. hehe. hurm,ill leave you guys with some before and after plastic surgeries pictures of two famous The Hills' casts just because i LOVE watching the reality series. haha;

heidi montag

Audrina Patridge

pssst; this post is just a mere interest of me, ive never done anything on my body, just incase any of you are wondering. LOL. and oh, sorry if you're reading this time puasa, sexy pictures pulak LOL.